When I hear people talking about porn addictions, I am amazed by the number of people who think porn is a “man thing.” I love porn and I am a child of God and a devoted wife and mother. I will watch it with my husband, but I prefer to watch it alone – and VERY frequently.
I do not work outside the home, but lately I’ve been faking sick ALOT to get out of going to church and driving my son to his different little league practices. My husband is really worried and paranoid because his mother died last year of cancer. He thinks I’ve got cancer like her, but I don't. I just want to be alone to watch porn. I don’t want to live like this anymore. I’m living a lie.
I know what the bible says about lust so, I even pray for forgiveness all the time. Whenever I go to church I ask God for help, but I don’t think He hears me because I just can’t stop. I feel demon possessed - almost as though God has forsaken me.